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understood. After all, we had had simi- riencing in that confluence what Heide-
lar conversations many times. Yet, there gger called Angst. That cold, emptying
was more I wanted to say and somehow I presence of "one's own most possibili-
knew that until and unless he could step ty:" death. It is about losing and finding.
out of the present into the moment and It is about finding and losing. It is about
"be there" with me, he would never un- being in a place and experiencing in
derstand. Intellectually, he might. As in- that moment every other time you have
telligent as Mark is, he wouldn't have a been there. Every word spoken. Every
problem understanding - intellectually. emotion felt. Every furtive glance. All of
But it wasn't about intellectually under- it. In exquisite detail. Now.
standing. It was about standing open Silently still. That's what it is about.
and standing in the confluence of past, In that moment everything is alive. I can
present, and future. It was about expe-
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